REFLECTIONS OF SEXUALITY IN COLLEGE: The word “gay” is now part of my vocabulary
So this is the very first blog I have ever written. I always thought about writing but never did it.
I guess I should start off by telling you a little about myself and about my goals for this blog.
My intent is to share with you all of my personal stories during my freshman year and maybe give advice along the way, or something to laugh at, or even something to relate to.
So a little more about me: I am a freshman. I am from Colorado. I am currently 18 years old. I am currently a theater major. I am a people pleaser. I love pasta, and I just recently added the phrase “I’m gay” to my vocabulary.
I wasn’t always able to say those words either. Only in my head could I say it. It was almost taboo to say something like that out loud where I was from. I didn’t know any out and gay kids at my high school. Zero. Of course there were a few I had suspected to be gay, after all I was in the theater department, but no one had the courage to tell anyone.
I didn’t have the courage myself either. Everyone wants acceptance in high school. So to avoid any conflicts I kept to myself about my sexuality for most of high school. I’m from that classic “small-town community.” Now I don’t have the horror stories that some may have, but it definitely wasn’t a walk in the park either.
People always want to know “How long have you known you were gay?” It’s different for everyone, that much I know. For me though, I knew at a pretty early age. I started realizing I was attracted to guys in 5th grade.
I had two friends in 5th grade named Steven and Luke. We would always hang out before and after school. Steven was my first gay crush. At the age I recognized that my feeling towards him was different than anyone else.
Now eventually I plan on giving you my full-length story of what happened from 5th grade to now, but to keep this post from getting to long, I’ll tell my story in a later post.
I want this blog to be relatable to freshman in general. I plan on adding my trials and tribulations of the transition I made from high school to Loyola, which I’m sure several students could relate to.
I hope that those of you reading this find my blog interesting, helpful, and entertaining.
Thanks for giving this a read.
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