CREATIVE WRITING CATHARSIS: Elvis Costello Song
By Barbara Crowley
Chameleon Creative Writing Blogger
I always believed there would be a day that you would wake up and realize that letting me disappear was your second biggest mistake.
Second of course to erasing me.
I never realized it was me who would wake up one morning soaked in the puddles of the sweat and regret I had shed the night before.
I had lost you somewhere within a dream, folded into the seams of my storybook nightmares.
You were the one who never really cared
and I was the one that got away…
slipped out of your rust-consumed handcuffs and snapped your chains
You gave me the key.
But I lost it on purpose to prove I would never leave.
Then you gave up on me.
So I broke both my wrists to set myself free
But I was stuck on a loop
tongue hanging out of my mouth, chasing you
Elvis Costello song stuck on repeat
but I kept hitting shuffle to alter the beat
losing on purpose NEVER comes as easy as losing accidentally
so I lost you unexpectedly
like the toy you’d think you’d miss
until you realize it’s been years since you’ve known where it is
You’re squirming somewhere deep in the folds of my brain
drowning in the thoughts I’ll never think again
memories so lost, I’ll never find someday
no lost and found box to find in the grey
and THANK GOD
because I never want to have to recycle you
and I hear you’ve transformed into someone new
and it’s better this way because I CAN NOT miss
a person who does not and maybe did not exist
But how could I have fallen in love with something imaginary
and spend a year convincing myself that something was something we really could be
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